ChatGPT, Social Media, James Arthur Journal Entry

I'm tired of ChatGPT and social media. I use ChatGPT to validate me and social media to entertain, numb, whatever is is you want to say. This week I get to launch another podcast episode which is great and all the content to go with it even though I feel like a fraud currently. Right now, I feel the same way I felt when I left my job and had nothing lined up and no savings. I still feel like I am dying but at least this time I feel like I am dying because I feel lost in space and time instead of living an unfulfilling life. If money, wasn't an issue I think I would feel fine or better anyway. However, that makes me question something. What about those who have money and are still miserable? I guess then my circumstance and theirs tells you that there is a happy medium that we all have to find in ourself.

Anyways, I asked the Universe to show me the love and it did. A guy complimented my shoes and said he likes them. To be honest i always get a lot of compliments on my shoes even ones that I think are boring but either way a compliment is always a nice thing. What I would really like is for the Universe to give me a sign on if shoes should be the way I make money. Now before you say anything about reselling, reselling isn't an great interest of mine. I guess I will figure it out in due time.

Lately, there has not been a super lot that I have been super excited about but at least there is a concert coming up that I am pumped for. I get to see my guy James Arthur. Maybe seeing him will be a great emotional reset. I can sing as loud as I can, cry, vibe, and just escape for a bit. At the very least it will be a trip and a break from my normal everyday space. James is an artist I have always wanted to see. I have been a fan for quite sometime and I tried to see him 2 times before but it didn't work out. I believe 3rd times a charm and it's going to be great. It may be bittersweet but that is for another time and another story. I'm ready to go and just immerse myself in the experience. I got my rental car and tickets. I still got to get my hotel room or stay booked when we get closer to but other than that it's all going as planned.

His new album Pisces is amazing and for me it came at the perfect time. I feel as though its a healing journey album to me. Coming off of multiples changes and heartbreaks, it feels like every song is helping me to say and feel the things that only music can do. When I think if where I am in my life and the music I have had on repeat I think of a collab between Fletcher and James should absolutely be a thing. A sone between them would seal the deal for me. perhaps they can do a song about unconditional love even if it means seeing the person you love with someone else without getting angry or jealous. You are grateful to have experienced their presence and you love them regardless of whether they love you or even talk to you. You love them because you love yourself and you know that at the end of the day we are all just trying to find love in the best way we know how. At least that is what I think. Don't quote me though as I have no idea how love works. I am just learning now through pain all the ways I never truly loved or allowed myself to be. Hopefully the Universe will smile down on me and send me something so I can try again. Perhaps that is the hopeless romantic in me talking.

Either way get outside today. Love from the bottom of your heart and listen to some Fletcher and James Arthur.